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1st day of 4th grade

 

The big day has come, and it is a day my daughter has been anticipating for the past couple months.  She is finally a real live 4th grader.  She was so excited that she woke up at 5:00 am, and wanted to get ready.  To understand the significance of this, you have to realize that this girl doesn’t really feel completely alive unless she’s slept well into the morning (just like her mama).  So 5 would typically be an excruciating hour for her.  But we got her dressed and carted her off to her first day.  She was lucky.  One of her best friends is in her class, and was placed very near her in the seating chart. So, for Alison, 4th grade had a good beginning.

It is interesting how we begin to live the joys and the dispairs of our kids.  I hear that once begun this never goes away.  Forever more the ups and downs of my girls will be the ups and downs of my own heart and soul.  Their pain, their accomplishments, their sorrows, their fears, the breath-holding moments just before letting go and falling into the various abysses that await each of us will never be felt alone.  I know my wife feels the same way, because we talk about our girls all the time.

Being a parent is no great accomplishment (at least for most of us, I think this is true).  After all, the majority of human beings will procreate, and will bring into this world children of their own.  So, practically, it is nothing but a biological experience share by most.  Yet, despite this, being a parent can be the most emotionally rewarding experience in any single human life.  It can bring meaning and purpose where there was once a desert of misunderstanding about one’s place in the universe.   Things can seem so terribly complicated at times, I know.  Everything is convoluted, truth is an idea we are asked to forsake long before we reach the age of consent, and sometimes the we wonder about the value of the entire species of man, let alone the value of any particular individual.  But then we have kids, and everything seems to fall in to place.  Things seem to make much more sense, and the world seems more promising (and more terrifying, perhaps).

My little girl is growing up.  She’s nearly 2 years younger than every other student in her 4th grade class, and is so very little to let loose into such a big world.  It’s hard letting go, and impossible to hold on.  All we can every really do is hold on with those heart strings that seem always to be strung to the point of breaking.

 

One Light, One Girl, About One Minute

ImageI haven’t posted in about a week, and that’s probably because I’m back from vacation, busy starting a new business, and have had very little to say, but much more to absorb.  But, yesterday, Alison was about to go out with friends to a waterpark, and I knew I was going to miss her…so I asked her to let me take a couple of pictures.  I had a whole setup at hand, but I knew that what I wanted was an intimate picture of my little girl.  It was a simple picture I was after, and I didn’t have much time, so I aimed my silver umbrella so that the light inside just brushed against her.  This left much of her in darkness.  There was just enough fall-off to give a hint of the back wall.  She left, I was alone, and I thought about how quickly our kids grow up and grow out of us.  Image

The above is an approximation of how I let her.  The umbrella was probably 3 feet from her, and about 5 to 6 feet from the rear wall.  I used fairly low power, probably 1/4 or 1/8th on one of my speedlights.

Friendships through photography

A friend we met along the way

The things photography brings you

Bea, the kids, and I are camping at Half Moon Bay near San Francisco.  We’ve been here before, and have come back because it’s a great camp site, with warm showers, and sits right on the beach.  The summer weather has never been too hot for us, and so, it’s a nice getaway from Southern California.  Sadly, the thing we haven’t found much of here is good coffee.  We did stumble up Blue Sky Farms yesterday, and while it wasn’t the best coffee we’ve ever had, and honestly can’t compete with the types of coffees you find in San Francisco, it was a pretty good coffee, and certainly the best bet anywhere near the campsite.

While there, we happened to meet a small family (Chris, Jen, and Judy) with their dog, Lyle Lovett.  Abigail loves dogs about as much or more than she loves chocolate ice cream, so, whenever she sees a new dog, we end up striking up an acquaintance with another dog owner.  Needless to say, we quickly made friends with Lyle and his entourage.  It was a nice meeting, and Jen and Judy were extremely kind and warm with not just Abigail, but with Alison, Bea, and me.  I happened to have a big camera and a big lens, so it didn’t go unnoticed for long, and before long, I found myself snapping some pictures of Lyle, exchanging business cards, and promising to send photos as soon as we landed back home.

Several hours later, I received a short email, the gist of which was this:  Lyle had passed, and our meeting seemed serendipitously arranged–Jen, Judy, and Chris looked forward to the photos more than ever under the circumstances.

I processed the picture above, and sent it quickly out.

I guess what the whole situation did was remind me that photography does, indeed, hold a certain power.  A well-taken and well-made photograph cannot capture the soul of any one or any thing, but I think it can capture the entire spirit of any subject.  I am relying on contextual minutia here, I know, but I am intentionally distinguishing between the soul and spirit.   I do not believe the two are synonymous.  It uplifted me to read the thank-you  that I received from Judy and read this, “I love the photo of Lyle – his eyes to me are so warm and attentive.”  The dog, as you can see, was beautiful.  His eyes held an entire language in them.  The expression above is not hard to read, and it was with these eyes that he communicated his wants, his fears, and his love to his family the entire length of his life with them.   If Judy, Jen, and Chris can look back on this photo a year, ten years, twenty years from now, and with this photo recollect just a few fragments of the Lyle’s wordless voice that he spoke, while alive and in their care, solely to them, then for me photography will have had more meaning than it ever had the right to have.

The thoughts of my family, as well as our prayers go out to our new friends as they lay their beloved dog to rest.

 

Everyone needs a helping hand

Want to take pictures like this?  There are only two things that I can suggest.  Get a light-stand (or tripod that works as a light stand, or get an assistant.  An assistant is better, and as you read, I think it will become obvious why.

The problem you will encounter with a picture like this is this: The sky is beautiful, and you don’t want to leave that out of your picture.  If you expose for the sky alone, everything else will be dark.  We’ve all seen those type of pictures, and, while they are often pretty, they are also lacking in some respects.  If we expose for the subject, in this case, my little Abigail, then the sky will go completely white, and everyone will say, “Oh, how cute your little girl is,” but no one will say, “Wow, what an amazing photographer you are.

The solution is this:  You need a flash.  To give your picture a bit more realism, you might choose to use a filter on the flash.  Orange or yellow will warm the picture up so that it really feels like sunset.  But, the important thing is the flash.  I could have shot the picture with my flash on my camera, but sadly, that only produces a so-so picture.  Better is to get the flash off the camera.  In this case, I had my wife stand about 4 feet away from Abigail (about 45 degrees to our right of her nose).  This adds shadows, and shadows give pictures a sense of drama and life.  As Abigail moved, my wife moved, tracking her with the flash throughout the shoot.

Some day I will collect all these photographs into some type of presentation.  My little Abi will in her gown, and her groom will be by her side.  I will start that show, and there will be a hush in the room as friends and family watch the moment-by-moment blooming of my child.  We will watch her grow from baby to woman, and the pictures that I give them will hold within them the warmth of her blood, and the flow of her breathing.  They will be still pictures that move (if such a thing is possible).  And as that presentation ends, so will end that grip of father onto child and I will let her go and she will be her own forever.  Pictures like these are pictures you will treasure, so I encourage you to get out there and start shooting.  Take a lot of shots, but make them good shots, and fill your shots with love and joy.

Just one flash

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I took the above picture last night while on a walk with my family.  It was dark, and I knew I needed to use some flash, but I also knew that the worst thing I could have done was to put the flash on my camera and shoot straight on.  The solution to getting a good shot was easy.  I asked my wife to hold the flash about 45 degrees left of where I was standing and had her point it directly at my daughter, Alison.  A simple shot became a great shot instantly.  No magic, no tricks, no fancy processing.

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Where are the fireworks?

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My first senior photo shoot of the year. His eyes staring into the camera say it all, I think.
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I’d planned on penning a July 5th post with this year’s fireworks.  Unfortunately, this happened.  But all is not lost.  July is starting off nicely.  I’ve done my first senior photo shoot (See Austin above), and am hoping to get more soon.   Beatrice has been busy networking.  I’ve been taking pictures like crazy, just keeping my eye and my skills sharp.  But I’ve also had time to reflect on some lessons that I’ve learned along the way of this journey into professional photography.  Some of this requires that I go over territory already covered, but that’s probably ok.  I like re-exploring the past to see if re-evaluation might turn up new discoveries—it generally does.

I did a Mother’s Day shoot at a local daycare.  I got to photograph over 200 kids.  What an opportunity.  These kids were amazingly beautiful, and perfect subjects.  With every click of the shutter, I could hear a Kuh-ching in the back of my mind.  Easy money, I thought.  But here are the lessons:

1. Kids always have boogers.  You wipe them, you have them blow their noses, you do everything you can to make sure you’ve got a clean starting image.  But, when you get home and you plug that upload cable into your computer, something magical happens.  Boogers suddenly appear in every dark round nostril.

It’s an interesting week of editing when you get to know boogers at this intimate level.  And if you are a person prone to science like I am, the inevitable happens.  You see so many boogers that you begin to catalogue, categorize, and label them.  You begin to note the subtle distinctions in yellows and greens, and this leads to so many theories and hypothesis on the variations of color and the significance of these color variations upon toddler health.  It was a rough week, and I still have nightmares in green.

2. People really don’t want to pay for pictures.  In fact, I have heard that they’ll do almost anything to prevent this from happening.  From taking pictures of the television set upon which their child’s photograph is randomly displayed (waiting patiently with fingers on the volume control of their iPhones), to attempting to get prints from very low resolution screen shots.   There are so many warnings out there about watermarking one’s photographs, that it feels like we may as well hang up our cameras and get jobs as security guards instead.

From that daycare photo shoot, with over 200 kids photographed, about 60 parents placed orders.  These weren’t your typical daycare pictures, mind you, but very nicely done, natural light pictures of kids being kids in their natural environment—the kind of pictures we spend really good money on maybe once or twice in a lifetime (for many of us, anyway).  The prices were reasonable.  So, Beatrice and I are spending many hours trying to figure out what kept the rest of the parents from ordering…and anyone who wants to help us understand this is more than welcome to leave us a comment with your ideas.  We really want to know how we could have gotten more orders.

3. Everyone is a photographer.  Everywhere we go, we hear the same tune.  “Oh, my uncle, niece, brother, father, mother, and aunt are photographers.”  Makes us feel very small in a very large pond.  But, we know what that really means.  It simply means that technology has advanced far enough in the field of photography that taking pictures seems easier than ever to most people.  So, there are few inhibitions to picking up a camera, getting a few decent shots, and suddenly believing and declaring that one has what it takes to go pro.   I highly recommend this site to anyone who wants to go this route.

Below you will find a picture of my daughter, Alison.  I didn’t use any fancy new camera to take the picture.  I didn’t use an iPhone or iPad, and I didn’t use any fancy App downloaded for free from iTunes or Google Play.  Rather, I used my trusty DSLR, pulled out an appropriate lens.  Put my settings to manual.  I read the light to determine an appropriate exposure.  I moved my camera and my body until I found a way to frame the shot so that it was interesting to me, and felt a bit more dynamic than a simple snapshot.  I kept in mind the rule of thirds (though sometimes I will rely on the golden ratio).  It took a little skill, but I love the shot.  She looks beautiful to me.  I captured her exactly as I see her day in and day out with the eyes of my heart.  What is the skill to do such a thing worth?

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Alison in Riverside, Ca. | Editing consisting of slight contrast adjustment.

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The biggest lesson I’ve learned so far, as I venture off into this strange land of professional photography is this:  The thing that drew me to photography is  what will keep me in it, whether I end up making money or not.  I realized a long time ago that there is something exciting and eternal about capturing images from one’s lifetime.  I am not a photographer, really.  When you think about it, what you realize is that photographers are more like the writers of books and the keepers of law.  We are historians more than anything else.  We capture moments in time that will never be seen again, and we give these to posterity for judgement, for solace, for simple reminiscence, and when needed, for courage.

You can’t bring a panda home

We just got our monthly newsletter from the San Diego Zoo.  Alison (my 7 year old) was reading through it, then became extremely animated.  Her eyes lit up as she continued to read, then she announced, “It says we can adopt a Panda.”  My wife and I continued to talk about the day’s events.  “We can adopt a panda,” she said again, surprised that we seemed to not hear her the first time.  “Why are you so excited?” I asked, then it occurred to me.  “Do you think you can bring it home?”  I asked.   She did.  Another tough lesson to go right along with There Ain’t No Santa—You can’t bring a Panda Home.

Redlands Oranges

ImageThe sun was beginning to fall, and the color sweeping across the sky was already taking on that orange glow that we see in so many posters of California Agriculture.  As you can see, the sun was coming from behind her.  I had a few choices to get a good exposure.  A flash, expose for Alison’s skin (but blowing out the background in the process, or what I finally chose to use, a reflector.

While the flash would have worked well, without something to balance the color more in the warm direction, Alison would have been well exposed, but her skin tones would not have matched the tones coming from the sun’s natural light (she would have seemed whitish-blue by comparison).  As noted, exposing to make sure Alison was correctly exposed would have meant everything behind her would have been far too bright and would have lacked all detail.  Luckily, I had a 5 in 1 reflector with me.  This turned out be be a really good option, as it assured that I would get both the background and Alison fairly well exposed, and I would also get the gold tone that sunsets should cast.

These 5 in 1 reflectors are not very expensive.  They fold up fairly small, but unless you take pictures as often as I do, might prove inconvenient to carry along on most trips.  But when you have a special shoot in mind, it is well worth the small cost to have one in the closet.

BTW, for anyone who was curious, this is my little sleepwalker from last night’s post.  Love this kid!

How to face life

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Photography is interesting in the way that it allows stories to unfold from mere moments in space and time.  You see a hammer fall onto a nail, the shutter goes click, and the minds that sees the picture tells you a house has been built or a messiah sacrificed.  No two stories are the same, but each has the potential to be tremendous in its own transformational way.  For instance, I saw the above gentleman being interviewed by a much younger, much cleaner and nicer looking guy.  They struck me as an odd pair.  The fellow above appeared to be homeless, or, at most to have very little in the way of assets.  As I watched the pair, I found my eyes and my curiosity drawn to the subject above.  I listened, too, to his gruff voice, and observed his rougher manners.  Yet in his hand was an old letter, and it was this that seemed the topic of their conversation.  My wife noticed too, and later told me she’d overheard the older guy admit, “I haven’t always been very nice.”  Reading his face, I think we can all see that without his having to say it.

But back to story-telling.  I look at the picture above, and my story becomes one of confrontation.  I see a face that has wizened through age and suffering, that has faced storms of every variety–rain and snow, wind and sun, the storms of relationships gone sour, the raining down of blows in street brawls, the tempest that stirs in the souls of those unlucky few who cannot accept society’s calls to conform.  I write a story of a man who has, indeed, confronted all of life head on and said to it, “I will face you eye to eye.”

The Kilian Kids

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I look at this picture, and it really makes me think about the importance of having good family photographs. It makes me think of the many pictures I’ve taken of my own kids, and of the hours I’ve spent quietly looking over them on my computer screen at night, or while rummaging through boxes when moving. A good picture doesn’t just capture a moment, but should capture the essence of a time. What is childhood? For the Kilian kids, I hope it can be summed up in pictures like this. I hope they look back some day at the pictures I’ve taken of them and say to themselves, “Yes, that is exactly what it was like when we were kids.”